Hurt.

I just can't do this anymore. The performance was criticised horribly. I feel so ashamed that it was me who he pointed at. Everybody will look at me differently now. In a bad way.

A band mate, or ex should I say did something terrible that it may involves at least my name.

Nobody seems to care about my feelings. It's not that I need anyone to feel me, but at least, realize that I have feelings too. I'm starting to feel that if you're not good-looking, your feelings and thoughts don't matter as much. If this is the case, I am failing miserably pretty much in every single way.

I am hurt, so so much. So much that I would just sit here in the darkness and cry myself to sleep. I want to end all of this things quick. Tonight was such a nightmare. Nightmare. And I am hurt.