50 bucks vanishing into thin air.

ATM ate my money like seriously! It was 50 bucks. I typed the value of 50.00 out and the machine seemed to be stucked. Then my card came out without the money. I then received a text message saying I've withdrawn 50 ringgit. Sad, of course I am. But I guess it's just not my rezeki.

Tweeted about it and there are few friends telling me to call the bank and whatnot. It's not that the value of the money is little or big or anything, but in a way, I don't find the need to get emotional for such slight mistake. I mean it's not like I can't continue living. Alhamdulillah I still am.

I am bit disappointed since the money was Ayah's and not mine particularly. He had to work very hard to get me and my sisters money yet it vanished just like that. Money is such a vital subject for me. Not just me, even for the whole world it is. I love it so much that sometimes I become so stingy in spending it. Yet like I said, I don't find the need of getting mad at this thing. Things happen. 

Maybe this is a punishment from Allah. Maybe it is a test. Maybe if I didn't lose the money I would be spending it on things that would only lead me to vices. Maybe I'd be spending it on things that would just give me nothing but sins. If that so, I am glad Allah took it away from me. He is taking care of me.  

I do not want such thing to control me and my emotions. Yes of course money is important in this life, but it doesn't have to control me and my emotions over. I would try my best to not let anything in this temporary world to control me. Oh Allah, help me. Guide me.