For good.

'Nurin, what is up with you and ..?' Several times people had asked me this question, and my answer would only be, 'done and settled'. I would really like to add 'I wish it never had happened' up. Truth to be told, I really do consider it as never happened.

Honestly, I regret every single thing I did. Actually, no, not everything, but this one thing called 'confession' I boldly made when I was 16. I can never thank the younger me for doing so, though that was exactly the one thing I want back then. And I thought I need it. I thought wrong.

There's not a part in me that's regretting you. But it takes the whole lot of me to try to not regret the so-called relationship we built. As I grew older, I'm starting to realize how beautiful it would be if the only man I have in my 'record' is my one and only legal husband. How pure it would be. And I still would want that. That is why it is my gut reaction to never admit if I am ever in love. Because I don't want to.

You are not only a chapter I would like to finish, I want to close the whole book. I do not only want to turn a new leaf, I'd like to plant new trees.