Field of study.

Pharmacy, medicine, psychology, actuarial science. I have no idea of what I'm gonna pursue right after this foundation level. I mean, for all this while, when people ask me of opinions on what THEY should be, I would say, 'IMAGINE OF YOURSELF IN 10 YEARS FROM NOW. WHAT DO YOU SEE? ARE YOU IN A LAB COAT? OR PERHAPS YOU'RE IN THE OPERATION THEATRE. OR MAYBE THIS, OR THAT.

But then when it comes to myself, I'm totally lost. The only image I can see I myself in the future is staying home and taking care of my children. That sounds utterly weird and awkward and silly, but that's that. I think I need to see a therapist ._.

I am not sure if I can meddle with medicines or even numbers for the rest of my life. This is confusing.

Turn to Allah, and never lose hope. Ikhtiar, istikharah and tawakal. Bi'ithnillah.