Melancholy.

Moods have been swinging extraordinarily unstable these past few days. Not that I haven't encountered such before.

It's just gonna be a week full of tears where I'd be accompanying myself to bed with tears and sad, depressing thoughts.

The thought of never going to get to study abroad. The thought of letting Ibu and Ayah down. The thought of letting myself down. The thought of losing a best friend. The thought of never going to get to study abroad. Said it twice since it is conquering at least a three quarter part of the mind. This is beyond depressing, feels like the heart is repeatedly stabbed by keris.

Enough said.