Come on!

Just got back from the talk regarding the autonomy interview. I am so hating myself for spending more hours in front of the screen, but before the feelings to write fade and I forget all about it, let me loose this time please? Hihi.

So......... Well, I can see faces of regrets at some places, and the faces of lost of hopes, and the faces of giving up. Maybe it is because I am not them, to be feeling what they feel, or to be experiencing what they are going through, but one thing I know for sure is that they have the power to control how their mind and heart should work, in accepting fate. No this is not about letting fate to decide what's gonna happen next, but to regret on what has happened, "then which of the Blessings of your Lord will you both (jinns and men) deny?" - Surah Ar-Rahman. 

Islam teaches us that when our mother's oocyte fused with our father's sperm, we have made a deal with Allah subhanahu wata'ala. Kun fayakun, "be! and it is", we have made this deal with Him. And now you are regretting on what He is giving you? No, that is not right.

I am sorry if I would offend anybody, but pessimists' existence makes me sick. They rot my heart, and give me this ill-hearted feeling. Whenever they open their mouth anywhere near me, the only thing I want to do is slap their faces and push them off the cliff. They brings out anger out of me, and anger is fire, syaitan. It is not good. It is bad, terrible.

I know there are those kind of people who say negative things not to bring people down, but to comfort themselves. I know, I've seen this kind of people. In fact in some cases, I may even be one of them. But let it be under your control. Don't let it out too much, it'll affect on others. Please.

Should be getting back to books. Less than three days more. Bismillah.