Success.

Not good enough. Even when you've given your best shot it still doesn't seems to be enough. And the things you get, what others get seems more appealing. Every single time.

How many times have you had this kind of thoughts or feelings before? Countless if you ask me.

It has been planted in our brains for decades, that all of us deserves the best. The best there are out there. And this 'best' is often affiliated with success. Or money. The more money involves, the more successful that particular thing is. Isn't that how the world works? We, all of us, study, work, live to succeed. And there is only one way success is ranked by the world. Am I right or am I right?

'It must be great to be living his life. He has everything.'
'They are so lucky they got to enter such prestigious school.'
'She's practically perfect, in every possible way.'

This kind of thoughts. Like I said, often I look at what other people have instead of what I have. Often I look at what I don't have instead of what I do have. I'm too busy brooding things I'm missing out instead of making the best out of the things that's right in front of my pair of eyes.

Now that I think it over, there are a lot of things I am eternally grateful for having. The people I met. The schools I've been to. The places I went to.

For an example, Selandar. I often had this thought of how unfortunate I was to get accepted into such destitute pitiful school. And how unfortunate I was to have to endure two years of life there. Why can't I be in a better school. I just thought how unfortunate I was.

And then I thought about the people whom I've encountered and became a part of my life. Some people made my life feels pretty pathetic. And there are some who I prayed I would never have to meet. And again I thought how unfortunate I was.

Why wasn't I given the best? Why didn't I get the best there are out there?

Then it hit me.

What if the 'best' in my eyes are some people's 'worst'. What if my 'worst' are some people's 'best'. How do I know? Well I don't. That is how life is supposed to be, isn't it. Life has got so much to offer, and you just don't know. Maybe, just maybe, the guy who seems to have it all doesn't really have it all. Maybe the best school isn't really the best. Maybe the girl is not that perfect after all.

Perspective.

In the end it's just how you look at that one particular thing. And from my eyes, I can say that the world has succeeded in tricking us, that there's only one definition of success. But really, that depends on you, whether to change it to your own or not.

That's all I got. Thank you for reading :)