Journal-y.

I was watching the saddest scene of Rooftop Prince where Boo Young was about to die sacrificing for the love of her life, the Prince when Kaklang WeChat-ed me saying that she needs to borrow some (a large amount of) money. I was crying initially watching the scene, but rather harder when Kaklang mentioned the amount.

It was kinda amusing actually, I wonder if those tears were genuinely for the purity of Boo Young's love towards the Prince or was my tears glands triggered by the large amount of money requested. Then I remembered, a Muslim is taught to never grieve or be saddened by anything related to the world. Everything we live for must be done for the sake of our lives in the hereafter.

Things got worse when I thought of cancelling some of my planned trips. I may not be going to the wedding in Johor as the date clashes with a Muslim sisters conference Kaklang had bought us the tickets long ago. I may not be going to Sibu since the date chosen is only one week after my trip to Pangkor which is probably the crucial time of us moving out of this house. Now that is two plans cancelled, two plans which I was supposed to go with the Malaccans tribe (now I sounded like Red Indians lol).

And then there's Penang. I don't know. I probably am not going to cancel this one out since it's going to take place in August and this time it's with the Malaccans friends but not with all of them, not because they can't but some of them don't know about it. It was supposed to be a secret, so I hope nobody actually read my blog. The trip is somehow a girl's only trip. So the boys have no clue about it. And some girls too for that matter. I feel really bad about this to be frank. There is never fun in secrets, is there? Never. I can't really imagine having a great time carrying this burden called 'guilt' on my back. And now I'm thinking of ditching if I can't get everybody to come along.

Istikharah. That's what a Muslim does before making any decision. That's what a Muslim should do. So yeah, pray to Allah for that I found my best answer for this yah thank you! Later :)