When I'm Gone

It's the exam month again. I think I really do have this tendency to blog when I'm really supposedly be studying right now. Oh well.

It's the seventeenth day of Ramadhan now, alhamdulillah for this opportunity to meet Ramadhan this year. Though so far I have only been fasting for 11 days. Shh please keep this between just you and me, thank you :p

So my topic for today is quite serious I can say. This thought has been crossing my mind few times now that I just have to write this down somewhere. You see my friend's mother passed away around two months ago, and then there are many news of people passing away lately, which got me thinking of my own time to go one day.

When I think about it, when I leave this world, if, I leave early before my family members do, there is only one thing I hope from them. And from everyone who knew me. That they would sadaqah to me surah Yassin or Al-Fatihah whenever the thought of me ever cross their minds. For my family members, and close friends, I really don't want them to mourn over my passing. Instead, I want them to carry on with their lives, be happy, feel all the happiness life has got to offer because I believe everyone deserves such. I know that I don't play a huge role in anyone's lives, just that I hope there would be people who secretly prays for me, whenever they think of me.

Likely so if I ever got the chance to have a family of my own and if I go before my other half do, or my children, I wish they would carry on with their lives. I hope I would sometimes crosses their thoughts, but I would not want them to have any regrets and wish things would not happen as everything that has happened or will happen, have been written long before we were even born to this world. I would not mind if my other half would find another love, as long as it will keep my family happy and together, the thought of it is enough to make me feel happy.

I don't know if I would even feel this way as well in the future, but for now, this is my truest feelings and thoughts. I know I would be forgotten when I'm gone. But I wish that sometimes, even once in a blue moon is fine, the thought of me would cross someone's mind and they would pray for me.