It was quite dramatic how I was listening to this while scrolling my Instagram timeline to find my (ex) crush's picture with his future (insyaAllah) significant other with such long and sweet caption. I find it really cute and thought I was in some kind of Korean drama scene with a music playing at the back. Hahaha you can tell I've been watching too much of em eyy.
Been 3 nights of my stay at Kaklong's in Johor. With the lack of sufficient (lol) Internet connection and bundles of movies and TV shows collection I have in my hard disk my life is indeed dull yet I feel most contented somehow. To be away from people and to be in my own solitude world. I just made myself sounded so lonely haven't I? But I don't really mind this loneliness. I choose to be alone, and there's a difference between being lonely and being alone.
For as long as I know, I just can't wait to finish my 4 years of degree and fly abroad. I feel like I'm gonna be able to know and recreate myself better there. I know I'm not suppose to rely my now on my future but this is one of the things that I can't control. Maybe I can, but I'm not letting myself to. I know I know, I've watched too many dramas and movies to not know many wise words. To have my teachers to be made out of the characters in dramas' experiences, I guess you can say how really really lonely this girl might be no?
Maybe. But I don't mind. Allah is here with me at all time. So I don't mind keeping my own company :)
It has never been one single day that I don't imagine of myself bein in the UK in another (perhaps) 48 months. InsyaAllah, I'll works hardest and smartest to make this dream come true. Amin.
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